THIS SUCKS!!!!

I am so tired of the ups and downs. Although right now, I could really use an up (or down, depending on whether you're talking mood or numbers) My CA125 is back up to 90. This is pretty high. Normal is below 35. So, another CT scan on Monday and then...?????? I don't want to go through this again! But I will if it's warranted because the other option is not acceptable. I'm having trouble concentrating on anything. And I'm crying a lot again. Oh well, perhaps health and happiness aren't in the cards for me.