better than expected

I'm not nearly as fatigued as I expected to be today. I was so tired Saturday and I thought it would get worse. Of course, it's possible that the chemo hasn't lowered my hemoglobin yet.
The pain is mostly in my left leg and both feet this time. Odd...that's really a change.
Here I am, another Monday off to recuperate. LAST ONE!
My daughter is getting married. Did I tell you that? I've been searching for what I want to wear and can't find what I'm looking for. So far, I'm only looking online. I hope I have better luck in the stores when I feel up to shopping. If not, I guess I'll need to have a plan b...or c. My own hair won't be back in yet so I know I'll have good hair for the wedding! :-)
I'll let you know if things change, but I may be on the final road to recovery!

but not quite the end

I am so exhausted. No energy. My hemoglobin is low. I'l probably have a blood transfusion  sometime this week and then I should feel better.
My kids sent me the most beautiful flowers! They have been with me every step of the way during this. Who could ask for more?
Time to face the last horrible weekend and then start recovering.

The End(ish)

Chemo is over. I still need to suffer this weekend and then have my slow week, but this time when the energy level begins to climb, it keeps on climbing.
Phase 2 is over (phase 1 was hospital/surgery)
Phase 3 begins with another scan in September then check ups every 3 months.
I had a nightmare that the scan brought with it some terrible news - but I know it's just a nightmare. Lab numbers are great. CA125 is now down to 16. Well within normal limits (it was 260 at its highest)
I had a fabulous celebratory dinner with my mother-in-law and the kids at Joe's Crab Shack. The crab  legs didn't exactly taste like crab but they tasted good. What a great evening.
Sleeping will be difficult because of the steroids I took and was given by IV, but it's time to try. Tomorrow is a work day.
Thanks for tuning in.

last one

Tomorrow is my last chemo treatment. If you had asked me back in May if I thought I'd make it to the end, I would have said "maybe". The first weekend of pain just really did me in. But here I am today with five treatments behind me and only one to go.
I'll catch you on the other side...

one week later...

Nothing like a bit of peripheral neuropathy to start your Thursday! I've had some minor numbness since the weekend so I was hoping that was it (not that that is a good thing). But noooooooo. The pins and needles had to make an appearance too. I keep telling myself "just one more, just one more" but I still hate feeling like this.
I'm haven't gotten back to full energy the last couple of times. My hemoglobin is low. The doctor said she won't cancel chemo for low hgb but will give me blood if it gets low enough. I almost hope I get some next time. I hate feeling so fatigued. My body is tired, tired, tired but my mind isn't so I still have trouble sleeping.
Oh well..."just one more, just one more"
Off to work.

getting there

This Thursday is my second last chemo treatment. I'm not looking forward to it but I am. I'm not because it's no fun and I have to face the horrible side effects again. I am because...well it's almost over. I will finish in August.
Things are going along just about the same. The side effects lasted a bit longer this last time. It may be because chemo is cumulative or it may be because I didn't drink nearly the required amount of fluids. I'll try to do better this time.
Tonight I made a sirloin burger with Bearnaise. This is something that I would normally love. Not so much this time. It wasn't terrible, and I'll probably make it again soon (there's left over sauce) but it didn't taste "normal". A few things do taste right: tuna, pineapple juice, lemonade and braunschweiger. That's enough, right?

OOPS. I just re-read previous posts. First there are many typos and some of them look like grammatical errors. How embarrassing. Then, when I was talking about the wonderful support I have, I forgot to mention that my cousin Steve baked and brought me snickerdoodles. How can any one forget snickerdoodles?

I'm trying to keep a positive attitude. It IS almost over! Soon I will have nothing interesting to post. Soon I'll be totally boring again. Soon I can concentrate on rebuilding my strength, keeping the weight off (and maybe losing more), enjoying my family and friends and making my job more interesting. Soon...

I guess there's no "usual"

The pain is usually gone - or just about gone - by now. Not this time. I don't know why. Maybe I'm not drinking enough. But nothing tastes good and I don't feel like drinking anything. Also, chemo is probably cumulative to a degree. I need to work tomorrow - I have things scheduled.
I'm sure I'll figure it out but I really hate this!!